Club Activity Record
Sakura Megumi

Things seem to have calmed down. I don't know if it will last, but I thought I'd start writing, now that we've got some time.
What should I write? Where should I start? I don't really know. I don't know what I want to do with this notebook. A personal organizer, maybe?
A letter? My complaints? Or maybe a testament?

My name is Sakurai Megumi. I used to be a teacher-
I'm a teacher at Megurigaoka High School-
I'm still a teacher. I still have students, after all.
I thought I'd start writing about how it all began that day. That's what I thought-
It still get chills every time I think about it. I can still hear the screams.
I'll get some tea. Write about it, bit by bit.

The gardening club in our school kept a vegetable plot on the roof, so there were always students up there.
Of course, they were only supposed to be up there at certain times, but no one really enforced the rules. There was no real need to, either, so everyone just let it slide. That's all there was to it.
At that time, there were three people on the roof. Yuki, Yuuri, and another girl.
I think she thought I was going to catch her for being there.
When she saw me, she got off the roof as fast as she could. I regret letting her go.
Yuki was the first to realize what was going on. She was pointing at the courtyard.
Something violent was happening. I knew that, but it didn't seem real. I couldn't imagine it happening.
That's when Kurumi burst onto the roof, completely out of breath. There were so many students behind the door.
Their screams-
At that time, I didn't stop holding the door shut.
Somehow, we ended up surviving. We lived in the school. Thank goodness we had water and electricity.
Thank goodness the solar panels on the roof were alright. Thanks to that, we could even take baths.
The emergency response manual. I always thought it was a bit much, but I have to go back to the staff room to check it out.

After clearing the classrooms, we had some time to rest.
We've got time to rest, I thought. I stood there for a while, just breathing.
What are we going to do now? The thought froze me mid-step.
Yuki was already starting to break.
So was I.
But, I'm their teacher. I have to hold everyone together.

Wakasa Yuuri. She's a very calm girl. She's got a strong heart. She always thinks of everyone else when she does things.
Yuuri asked me if I could give them lessons. For the future, as well as to let the days go by. I thought it was a great idea.
A teacher doesn't just teach students. They learn from them as well. I thought I knew that, but every day reminds me of that fact.
Lessons. That's great, but I can't help thinking there's something else we can do.
Like fix up the vegetable garden on the roof.
Takeya Yuki seemed to cheer up a lot as well.

The School Life Club. It's a pretty decent name, I think. I'll be the advisor, and they'll be the members.
We won't be 'trapped' here any longer. We're just staying over.
If we think of this as just another school activity, we'll find more things to do. More things we want to do.
But, even so, at night, as I curl up in my sleeping bag, I can't help but feel like I'm being shut in a box.
I wonder how those girls are doing. Seperated from their families.
We'll push forward every day. It's a club activity. Maybe, it'll give some meaning to all this.

Ebisuzawa Kurumi is a strong girl. Physically speaking, she's the most capable, and she's always helping us out.
It's by her suggestion that we ended up expanding our living area. It'd be impossible for the rest of us.
I don't know what to think about exposing my students to danger. If it were possible, I'd rather take her place.
But, if I did, I'd just end up being another sacrifice.
All I can do is be their support. Steady their hearts. That's what I think.

Takeya Yuki is-
I might be imagining things.
I might be imagining things but I'm writing this down anyway.
I always thought she could be a little childish, and that she acted like a little kid.
Lately, it seems like she's become even more of one.
I don't know. I don't understand.
Yuki went back to normal. She cheered up. Her smile gives me strength.
But, I don't know if this is alright. I can't shake this awful feeling.

(Just as a note, entries 9 and 10 seem to be missing. It skips ahead to 11.)

I wanted Yuki to smile.
I was the one who built the illusion of a normal school life.
When she started regressing, it was me who thought it was a good thing.
Everything that led up to this is my fault.
But, before that- I finally managed to get into the staff room.
The emergency response manual.
My responsibility.
The responsibility of us adults.
There are no adults left. It's my responsibility.
We can't stop time. I will do anything, as long as someday, the three of them will be able to leave this place smiling.
I will live just to see them out the door.
Because I am Sakura Megumi. Because I am a teacher at Megumigaoka High School.